Before the reunion aired on Feb. 7, Jake confirmed in an Instagram Q&A that he would not be in attendance. When a fan asked him why he wouldn't be there, the deckhand responded, "I broke me [sic] brain" (per Monsters & Critics).
On Jan. 24, 2022, Jake posted a photo on Instagram which was accompanied by a lengthy caption, which may have shed some light on what he's been dealing with in his personal life.
"Today I did the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I flushed out the toxicity in my life and finally showed myself some love. This is the first time I have truly felt free from all the s--t that has been going on in my life. I haven't smiled in months and, right now, I am smiling so much I want to cry, it honestly feels f-----g great..." he wrote. "Life can be a real c--t sometimes but you just got to keep fighting for yourself and show yourself the love you deserve. Nobody can help you if you don't help yourself."
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"As lucky as I am to have very understanding friends and family enough is enough and I can't put them through this s--t any longer. The steps I took today was [sic] the biggest thing I've had to do, and I can see myself growing and I won't let these intrusive harmful thoughts control me any longer," he added. "Big love to everyone who has supported me and all the beautiful kind messages I get from you guys everyday!! Love you all so much! Now f--k off!"
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The Below Deck alum did not elaborate on the nature of the "toxicity" in his life, nor did he clarify which "steps" he was taking in order to grow.
On the day that the reunion aired, Jake apologized to his fellow crew members for his absence via an Instagram story.
"Good luck everyone tonight. Sorry I couldn't be there," he wrote on Feb. 7.